Oh wow! So tonight was fun hanging out with my friends. We drank a bit, quite a bit actually but not as much as others tho. coz they drank a lot hehehe *Neren your so bad!* spanking myself! ouch! Oh The place was new and cool too and they got a reggae songs there. It makes me wanna go to the beach and shout out loud ~WHY, WHY, WHY and then cry huhuhuh~ lol hahaha crazy me. Oh i remember! Ewwww there was alot of throwing up happened there too.I told you, dont drink too much! Tsk tsk tsk. See they're throwing up bcoz its tooo much already but still they wont stop! But all in all tho it was a blast, just living loose and lettin go. But you know what, no matter where i go or what i do, i can't escape the thought of being lonely coz even tho. im in a crowd, it seems like i'm alone there. Oh gosh, oh no! I should be strong enough by now coz it's been a month! Grrrrrrrr im so so stupid for feeling this way im so sorry but i can't help it.Damn! everything looks so weird ryt now.Hahaha I think im still drunk cuz everything looks sooooooo damn weird.Shit just doesn't seem normal, it doesn't seem real.Craziness i tell you hahaha.Oh yeah the absolute worst holiday is approaching. ~Valentines day~ Yes it's coming and it sucks! I just think of him and our first date and it makes me so sad. The first time we went out was on Valentine's day. Now we are not even speaking.


My song for today...